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When I started dating I had a hard time sleeping one night, so I passed the time by going through my old bedroom thoroughly.

While looking at old photos, and some of my favorite toys and books from when I was a kid, I got very emotional and sat down to pen the following piece.

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I Never Aged

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I never aged, I was once a child but never more

I never grew, I was once small but now that is hard to conceive

I simply awoke

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When did my childhood end?

When did I change from being the guarded to the intrepid?

From crawling in the shadows of my elders, to sailing the sunrays all alone?

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I noticed it suddenly

I had claimed it as mine for years, being “mature”

It took but one childish picture to open the floodgates of realization

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What brought on the transformation?

Whence did I change from the child in the candy store

That it was to me they turned for payment, me? Am I not still the child?

No…

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I never consented, I was to be child forever

I never agreed, it just came about, all at once, no hope or gate could halt it

I was a boat thrust into the sea with but the wind of my culture and schooling to fill my sails

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Why did this have to happen?

Can’t we just live in the innocent purity of youth forever?

No longer can debts be paid with a childish smile, no time for you and me, only work,… and death

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I never aged, I am still the child that is no more

I never grew, I am still small inside though large I may seem

I simply awoke this way, hoping this is but dream, only dreaming to hope

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I never aged, the world aged me

I never agreed, the contract signed me

I never hope, hope is fallow in the world that aged me